Your soul is not asking you to be perfect. Your spirit is not asking you to be clear-cut. Your intuition is going to bring you back around to places you thought you had left forever.
Sometimes there is magic in the mess. Some things have to be a bit messy for them to make sense.
Right now if you are feeling a mess, welcome it all.
You’re just incredibly aware that not everything going on in the world is logical or right – and you’re not contorting yourself to make it so.
Spiritual perfectionism will have us running around trying to be more aware, more knowledgeable, more centered, rather than just being.
And when you are just being, you can be incredibly aware of how much mess you are actually sitting in; how many past cycles you are revisiting and retracing the grooves of each day.
I used to get so frustrated with spiritual energy updates and astrology reports that would proclaim ‘We are in a new cycle’ or ‘This is time to release the old’.
It can become very samey-samey, more sentiment than insight. But on the other hand, we are always letting go of the old and letting in something new.
What is often missing is this awareness, that despite the repeated cycles, we are creating something new amongst it all.
We can create a new loving relationship, all while grieving a friendship from second-grade.
We can step into our most creative selves, reach a new pinnacle of visibility, and still feel pangs of unworthiness flowing from past conditioning.
We can learn something entirely new about ourselves, while noticing old knowledge simultaneously lose its spark; lose its weight or life-force.
We can feel amazing in ourselves, look around at the world and feel guilty for being grateful at all. In tune but seemingly out of sync all at once.
There is a certain cyclical nature to things that we have to appreciate, that we have to come to peace with. So that we can get really quiet, sharpen our vision, and notice the ways out.
When I am most in tune with my higher self it never asks me to abandon my negative, it instead encourages me to make space for all else alongside it.
When I am most connected to my spirit it doesn’t ask me to progress upwards endlessly in the physical, but encourages me to look at my movement both back and forth.
Measuring progress is where the mind thrives, making space is where the spirit lives. Mind ascribes, spirit considers.
Maybe you aren’t lost or confused right now, maybe you’re just making a lot more space – to consider it all, not just what makes you comfortable.
Maybe you aren’t lost or confused right now, maybe you are just feeling more than ever, and at first that requires some organization.
Maybe you aren’t lost or confused right now, maybe you are coming to know how your magic looks amongst the mess.
Your perception is increasing, so that you can see what you can create even when the world is on fire.
So that you can see how much faith your body can hold, even when the physical circumstances look dire.
So that you can see all of the different opportunities present in quiet, stillness, calm. To create from a space where you aren’t being pushed forward on autopilot but are choosing which direction to go.
What parts of yourself you want to inspect, observe and explore. Not just from a space of ‘Something is wrong, let’s fix it’ but ‘I want to know myself better’.
You come to know a shadow that at first is very heavy, but you later find out was hiding gold.
As we enter this new season, let your progress be messy! Move forward cautiously if you have to. Move forward with suspicion, a heavy heart, a mind that won’t shut up.
That’s how you break out of your cocoon.
Not by leaving these parts of yourself somewhere in the past, on some part of the path you’ve marked on your map as ‘over’ and thinking they’ll never return.
But by bringing them alongside you for the ride – and letting them show you what love and acceptance really looks like. Because you’ll need these qualities where you’re going too.
I hope you enjoyed this little love letter!
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Hey there, I’m Ashley. I hope that by sharing my experiences with deepening my intuition, I can help you find that ‘spark’. That magic we can all experience when our energy is aligned and we feel deeply supported by the Universe.